In lieu of a weekend Psyche vid, which I had plenty of and just missed the boat on posting, here are a few random things. First is an article titled Living with Cancer in America, by mantle cell lymphoma survivor and famous journalist Jonathan Alter. It’s pretty informative and covers the subject in a more straightforward manner than you’ll likely get from me, so some of you will undoubtedly appreciate it.
Alter had a similar treatment to mine ten years ago, which must have been pretty scary. Not only was the protocol new-ish, it had little track record with mcl and the options should it return were much worse than today. He does a great job rolling with, all while keeping his job reporting on the 2004 election. It’s good stuff.
I rubbed my eyes and sensed the truth instantly: cancer, and not one that had been detected early. I was 46 years old and had not spent a night in the hospital since I was born. Nonsmoker. No junk food beyond the occasional barbecue potato chips. Jogged a couple of times a week. I was not remotely ready for this.
Next is an email I wrote to a friend, who asked us for suggestions to find a way for him to get more motivated with his training, since life at home is just too hectic with the kids and everything going on. It got me even more fired up to nail my post-transplant training regimen. It also makes me wonder why I do so many gravity sports, when training to get bigger is so much fun.
Does your school have a gym you can use? Even if it sucks they probably have Crossfit shit because that’s all the old stuff. If so, there might be some people working out and those who train in the morning are generally pretty psyched at school. That would be a good crowd for motivation. I always made my team practice at 6:00am as a part of the dedication/motivation thing. One of those we’re working while everybody we’re going to play is asleep things. The vibe on campus is totally different then, like everyone who’s up is thinking the same thing in one way or another. In the pre-season we’d sometimes weight train before practice, so at 5:30. Rarely was anyone else there but, if they were, they were pretty psyched: elite athletes or coaches who used to be elite athletes.
Another option is a serious gym. Not 24hr fitness crap, but a place run by a meathead. Find one in every town, so you have one somewhere. You can make fun of those guys all you want but they get after it, and the vibe in those places is generally pretty damn motivating. We used to train at a place in Covina that was rad. Signs all over berating you. I remember one of them. “If you want to look in the mirror go next door to the beauty parlor.” I learned to railroad there. You stack weights on the bar in reverse. So 2.5, 5, 10… to whatever you can handle for one rep. Then you start your set. When you fail, a weight comes off and you keep going until you’re about to puke and struggling with a bar with 2.5lb weights on it. Looks pretty rad when a 300lb guy with 25″ biceps is doing it. It’s probably not worth dick all for fitness but whatever. It’s awesome.
Ah, man. This makes me want to start beefing’.
I’m not satisfied. I want more weight!
Finally, the yang to that yin. Last night my wife had me take a see what “my subconscious is obsessed with”. My came out “nature”, and it’s hard to find fault in it. Here’s an the answer:
From a very early age you’ve felt a strong connection with animals and nature. You’ve always loved camping, traveling, hiking and just exploring the beautiful world that surrounds us. For you, nature is this beautiful, magical place where everything makes sense. There are simple rules and adventure is always waiting for you just around the river-bend.
Your subconscious makes you think about traveling while doing grocery shopping, cooking, walking down the street and especially while working. And if you could, you would leave everything and go to travel around the world.
That’s me to a T, which brings me back to cancer. By far, the crux of this entire endeavor is sitting inside a hospital room for days on end. When I get out, the first thing I do is head into the mountains, hike somewhere, and just breathe and look around. I feel sick when I leave the hospital and well when I leave the mountains. I’ve been this way all my life. This is why I do gravity sports and need to stay light, because my life happens where that’s an imperative. This is also why transplant, and its three weeks indoors, is likely going to be very, very hard. But that’s okay, because another thing I do is make myself very uncomfortable by design, and it’s that time of year again. I’ll be starting right after my birthday, so it can be this year’s challenge, and it’s not supposed to be birthday pretty hard.